It's been quite a while since I last used up my space here (a lot of things have happened since) but I'm glad to be back.

To be honest, I had second thoughts about writing here again since I wanted to start fresh and new on another blog - a "fresh start" if you will. Well, at least that's what people call it these days.

Part of the reason is because I'm at a stage of my life where I don't feel like the same person I was months ago let alone years (since I started this dear blog) partly because of growing up and some of us just...change.

My priorities have definitely changed since I lost my dearest dad two months ago. It made me self-reflect and think a lot. About life. About myself. About others.

It wasn't as if I wasn't thinking about these stuff before. I just think about it more and feel it. It's hard to explain - but I guess it's either you get a feeling or you don't and this time, I'm getting it. 

I guess my passion right now is to really focus on making myself a better person. My dad's passing made me realize even more that life is just too damn short to waste it on things that are meaningless, redundant and bad for yourself. I find comfort in God more than ever now and so far, I've found all my answers from my prayers to Him. 

I live by every single day knowing that it might be my last and by doing that, I have this overwhelming desire to try to be the best version of myself. 

One of the biggest hit for me was to realize